Life's Been Great!

So I've been doing so well lately. I have been doing great in school, nothing lower than an 84 :D. I have made a LOT more friends from last year, I even have a boyfriend now, his name is Nick. He's fantastic. The only thing that's been a disappointment is the Longhorns lost to Texas Tech by one touchdown on the last second!!! AH! and we were number one! GAH!!

I've been searching for a job EVERYWHERE but no one wants to hire me. My dad told me it's probably the economy. Oh well. I've been having so much fun. Parties and hanging out with my friends is all I do right now. I'm amazed by how well I've been able to balance that and school, something that I haven't been able to do ever! Everyrthing is perfect...except I haven't lost all my pregnancy weight yet!!!


But I've been wonderful since the adoption, I haven't cried or had a sad thought about it since the day Julie and Jonathan left. I am happy, and have been for a long time now, which is a very welcomed change. :D

It finally happened, and I couldn't be happier.

Well baby Jack Anderson was finally born on August 5, 2008 at 1:53 am (though Jonathan and I agree it was 1:54). It was a quick delivery, which probably was the direct cause of my stitching! He was the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my life. When I heard him cry for the first time, I let out a few tears of my own. I didn't think I could believe in Him anymore than I already did, but I saw that baby boy and my heart exploded with love, gratitude and faith. God gave me the greatest gift to give to Jonathan and Julie. They truly are the greatest people I have ever met. They understand how much I love Jack because they love him the same way I do, and they let me have so much time with him, I feel like a baby hog :). They stayed at the hospital with me the whole time and took care of Jack and I. They hardly got any sleep at all, but they did everything with a smile and I appreciate them so much. I personally would have choked me out :).

You know, as hard as this decision was, I really wouldn't have it any other way. When I was in that room at Abrazo, I cried a little bit before they brought the papers out. I was talking to Pamela and I had asked her why was it so hard if it was the right thing to do. Why would something I knew in my heart was the best be so painful? Then I realized, the pain I felt was the overwhelming love for my son, and that the decision was for the best and was right, and it seemed like that was all I needed to dry up my tears, and I signed those papers with a smile on my face. I guess it's because I know it's right and thats why it puts me at ease. It sounds dumb when I write it, but it's hard to explain. People tell you all the
time, "Everything's going to be just fine." But no one ever really knows that for sure, only this time it was certain. The only time I knew it was really was going to be okay. And that is what puts me at peace. I cry still, almost every night, but it's not sadness or grief, believe it or not, it's of happiness and appreciation. Julie told me while we were at the hospital that I had saved his life. And in a way, yes I did. But to me, they are the ones who saved his life. Sure, he would be alive, but his life would be empty, unfulfilling. The reason being, if I had not been paired with Julie and Jonathan, I would not have placed him. I truly did not want any of those other people to parent my son. I would have ended up keeping him and I would never have been able to give him the life he deserves. Jonathan and Julie can give all the love I can, along with all the care I can't. With them, he is truly safe and loved. He will grow up knowing how much everyone loves him, what a gift he truly is, and he will be happy. And for that, I can not thank them enough. I thank them for giving my son, OUR son, the life he deserves and all the love a mother and a father can give him. I also thank them(and their wonderful families) for making me so much a part of their family as Jack is. I couldn't be happier.

Full-term mark today :D

Well, today I hit the full-term mark, 37 weeks! I have a doctor's appointment on the 28th. Geez, I'll be 38 weeks!! This is crazy. It seemed like just a little bit ago I was staring down at the little piece of plastic with my mouth almost touching the bathroom floor. But still I'm excited. My back has sure taken a toll. Gah, and my knees too. That'll be one of the few things I won't miss about pregnancy. I can't wait until my little brother will be able to stomp out my vertebrae again, haha. And I usually run into the dilema on what to spend my birthday money on, but not ths year! I am going all out clothes shopping ! ! ! And maybe, if I can bat my eyes extra hard, I can get my dad to take me to take my drivers' test on my big day too. :D

Well this week I havent done much though. My little brother's birthday is next week on the 26th, so I'll post about that with lots of pictures. :)

Love to everyone(with a little extra set aside for Jonathan and Julie)

4 weeks left, and my visit with Jonathan and Julie :)

Well today (technically yesterday, I suppose)I had my 36 week visit. Everything looks great. His heartbeat was an excellent 141 bpm. I gained a whole other 8 pounds today! So, altogether I've gained 17 pounds, which my OB was finally satisfied with. I have a little over average fundal height of about 38 centimeters(at 36 weeks most women are 35-36 cm, doesn't sound like much, but I guess there is a big difference according to my OB), which means he's more than likely going to be a BIG baby, fun fun! I can't believe it's almost time! It's a little nerve-racking, but exciting all the same.



And last week, I got to see Julie and Jonathan! That was a lot of fun, and I really appreciated them taking my little brother, Jake. We had a lot of fun. The first night we went to Outback, which was great! My brother loved it. :) Then, we went to San Marcos outlet mall for a few minutes of window shopping, before we headed of towards the bowling alley.

We stopped at their hotel first so Julie could get some socks. :)

We had an awesome time. I almost beat Jonathan, but he got me in the end by 10 points. I told him just wait until I have this belly out of the way, then he's done! haha :). Afterwards, we went to DQ (yum!) Where Julie, Jonathan, and Jake got oreo blizzards, I got a Thin mint blizzard, which was awesome.



The second day, the three of us went to the Cracker Barrel for breakfast, which was delicious :). And I, being paranoid, had gotten something on my WHITE shirt of course, and Jonathan&Julie were kind enough to take me back so I could change. We snatched my little brother from the house too, he just looked so lonely. So we couldn't figure out what to do, we just drove around for about an hour and a half, until we decided to go back to the outlet mall for more window shopping :). But, the evil Rocky Mountain (spotted fever, haha inside joke) Chocolate Factory had to seduce us with candied apples, brownies, and toffee, ha. Then we went to historic Gruene, TX for lunch, at the Gristmill. It was really good!

Julie had her first Chicken Fried Steak, which amazed me. I guess I'm just so used to it, and I never realized how much of a Texas thing it really is, haha.
We had a great time, and I can't wait to see them again, which shouldn't be too much longer at all!!

P.S. Thanks Julie&Jonathan for all the pictures I stole from your blog!! :D

7 weeks!

Today I am exactly 33 weeks. I have 3 2-inch stretch marks on my lower belly!!! :( My mom told me they will prebably go away, I pray they do! I really don't sleep much anymore, but I am tired. He just so big now. I have a doctor's appt in 3 weeks (July 11), so maybe they'll be able to tell me the weight and length so I can report something to Julie and Jonathon. I can't wait to them soon. :) I got a haircut, because it's so hot!

32 down, 8 to go.

I've gotten so much bigger in the past few weeks. I went to the doctor's on Friday and I was 31 weeks and 6 days. Today I'm 32 weeks and 1 day. I have to say my back is most definately becoming a bit uncomfortable and my belly is running out of room for the little one, but he definately has plenty of room to kick me in the ribs, haha. I'm getting a little anxious, I'm ready to blow, haha. I really can't wait though.

So Far...

My name is Jessica...I perfer to spell it with a 'k', I'm not quite sure why. I'm 15 yrs old soon to be 16 on Aug. 23rd. I am 31 weeks and 1 day pregnant so far. 9 weeks left :). It's a little boy. I had decided to put him up for open adoption and found a WONDERFUL family, the Davis' (Julie and Jonathan). They are some of the most loving people I have ever met. I met them in person on May 10th of this year. I can't wait to share this little miracle with them for the rest of my life. I am so happy I found them. I know in my heart God put us together, and I thank him every night for it.